i have alot to tell you... or rather alot i could ramble on about.
...but im not- i'll spare you the various recollections of the past few days because right now they seem so menial.
however i have to ask:
have you ever felt so deep, so sunken in, so pierced by someone or something? have you ever been doused in permanent anxiety and worry? have you ever felt so alone and confused that you allow yourself to decay in the depths of your own being? seeing you tonight was the reciprocation i have for so long yearned for... it means more to me than anything ever has. i love you so much.
you held my tear in the palm of your hand-
a tear to me is the most precious thing in the entire world
and you holding mine, was the greatest gift anyone
has ever given me.
i will forever love you.
the last two days have been probably the two beautifulest days of my entire life and i think what happened will forever impact who i am and who i will become.
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this is me raw and real- just like you, i can only hope that each of you can at some point of your lives can find a sort of peace to fill the voids that the injustice of others and even the injustice we deal to our ownselves creates. there will be many more empty days to come, but these few and seldom moments of perfection act as a balance; they keep us driven. each day is something to truly treasure and i wish i hadnt wasted so much of my strength on all the meaningless morrows and epilogues to come.
today right now, in this very moment- i feel as if i truly have begun to live.
...but im not- i'll spare you the various recollections of the past few days because right now they seem so menial.
however i have to ask:
have you ever felt so deep, so sunken in, so pierced by someone or something? have you ever been doused in permanent anxiety and worry? have you ever felt so alone and confused that you allow yourself to decay in the depths of your own being? seeing you tonight was the reciprocation i have for so long yearned for... it means more to me than anything ever has. i love you so much.
you held my tear in the palm of your hand-
a tear to me is the most precious thing in the entire world
and you holding mine, was the greatest gift anyone
has ever given me.
i will forever love you.
the last two days have been probably the two beautifulest days of my entire life and i think what happened will forever impact who i am and who i will become.
this is me raw and real- just like you, i can only hope that each of you can at some point of your lives can find a sort of peace to fill the voids that the injustice of others and even the injustice we deal to our ownselves creates. there will be many more empty days to come, but these few and seldom moments of perfection act as a balance; they keep us driven. each day is something to truly treasure and i wish i hadnt wasted so much of my strength on all the meaningless morrows and epilogues to come.
today right now, in this very moment- i feel as if i truly have begun to live.
